I just wanted to pause for a breath and catch up to say a huuuuge Thank You for subscribing, and for sharing comments or insights at the end of my first few articles. It really means the world to me, and genuinely gives me hope for humanity that more and more people are starting to look closely at what’s going on.
If you’re a paid subscriber or a founding member, double and tripple thanks for being so patient with me. You WILL be getting special content asap.
What I’m really trying to do at the moment is tick things off a kind of mental shopping list that I drew up before starting this substack, so if you’ll indulge me for a few minutes I’ll try and summarise my intentions and clarify my thinking about where I’m going with this – for my own benefit, as much as yours :-D My thinking/reasoning capabilities have been so shot to pieces by taking on my 4 yrs of trans “education” on behalf of our estranged daughter, that finding the peace and clarity to simply think clearly has often been AWOL. I still find sleep hard, concentration challenging, the processing of stuff that I find unbelievable still shocks me and kicks me in the guts when I least expect it.
Firstly, this will likely be the end of my long pieces (although I reserve the right to change my mind and may continue with longer form pieces for paid subscribers and/or founding members).
BUT
The first things on my list were:
a) Present a reasonable account of the abuse suffered by ALL parties, thanks to the poisonous invasion of gender ideology into our family lives. Done that, for better or worse. That’s my main feature - my pinned story. Everything I’ll do on here is driven by that.
b) Provide a serialised account of the Cult, how it supports and sustains itself and how it took our daughter. Check.
c) Across both a) and b) present my “findings” after 4 years immersed in a deep dive into the key drivers, movers and shakers of the “movement” Done that – more to come
d) Across a), b), and c) attempt to be focussed and clear, less angry, less silenced, more detached, more personal – not achieved as well as I thought I might, but I’ll press on.
So having got the biggies out of the way, it occurred to me that I still had a huge library of writing, of long articles and pieces, diary-type insights and half-written prose that I was trying to pull into publishable form but all I was doing really was recycling the same thing; over and over and over again – just saying the same thing in slightly different ways.
In effect, I was in a state of disbelief over my own disbelief, like someone still trying to shout at everyone because our trauma was dismissed by so many – like what’s the point of saying anything quietly anymore? So I’ve made a conscious decision (and a positive recognition) that repeating a), b) & c) is no longer necessary. I can scrap that and move on.
I’d like to thank Stella O’Malley, and dropping in on her zoom chat with estrangement expert Karl Melvin, for that valuable nugget of self-awareness. I can still be angry about stuff, but be lighter about it - more forceful even.
And since I work professionally in the arts, and am thankfully widely published, exhibited and even collected, I would very much like to turn my substack into a different kind of Words and Pictures resource that I hope will:
Act as a personal repository, an archive, a record in time, of events that I feel my own family should have some recourse to
Produce shorter, tighter communications that amplify some of my “findings” from c) above
Be shared, copyright free, by all and sundry
Create screenshot art, mosaic-style, and graphic resources for other image-makers to use for their own image-making
Amplify the voices of so many people who have helped to throw light on those secretive dark shadows
Develop art-based resources for GC parents, activists, and educationalists of the non-sex-denialist kind
Produce a range of art prints, knowledge boards, mood boards, and graphic posters that challenge the trans madness, act as activist resources
BE MORE GRAPHIC, leave longer word passages to those great writers who are experts with stringing decent sentences together.
(Mind you. I’ll still be using short text in my artworks to come)
Use occasional bite-sized snippets, cuttings, triptychs, unsent tweets, and any other visual device to provide a mixed menu of newsletter-type insertions to my weekly emails.
Also, and very importantly, I’ll showcase the work of other gender critical artists here at Denton Yoga-Carter. I’ve already drawn up a list of 20, if anyone would like to suggest names of those to feature, please do leave your suggestions/links with me.
Just for starters, I’ve inserted above the best piece of gender-critical art film I’ve ever seen. Thanks The State Media @The_StateMedia You nailed it.
Oh, and I’ll always keep it real, keep it honest, and drop those truth bombs.
So watch this space —> ( ) as they say.
Thanks so much for subscribing.
Thanks for your support Ute, and for sharing. I'd really like to put some of your memoir &/or promote the film when it's due, feel free to prompt me or drop back in to comment any time. In the meantime I'll keep trying to develop this sub stack in the ways I mentioned, hope it will grow in time as it builds momentum
As a trans widow (ex-wife of a man who says he can claim "motherhood" also) I find many parallels between our bereavements. My memoir, In the Curated Woods by Ute Heggen has just been reviewed by Donovan Cleckley at womenarehuman.com. I hope that my book will inspire others to publish their chronicles of life after the "ideology" took over. I put a great deal of effort into remembering the happy times, the true motherhood of my motherhood and towards expressing how to maintain your perspective, sanity and connections to nature. Illustrated with 50 photographs from my woods and gardens. uteheggengrasswidow.wordpress.com for links to studies, reflections on the latests coercions of the "movement." Best papers debunking this so far are by Dr. Stephen B. Levine ("Informed Consent Reconsidered) and Jay Greene of The Heritage Foundation, in which he debunks the Jack Turban statistics and proves that suicides go UP, not down, with "transition."
I too, have lost contact with my sons, after the ideology made their wealthy, tech exec father's non-support and betrayals perfectly normal and acceptable. Keep on writing. I'm retired--I cannot imagine operating in the arts at this point in time!
Early next year, Vaishnavi Sundar (Lime Soda Films YT channel, originator of 4 part series Dysphoric) will release the film, Behind the Looking Glass, about us ex-wives. We came forward in hopes of revealing the nonsense, the coercion of families, the professional malpractice in the medical and mental health field.
be well, live long, stay sane~Ute